Her words filled Duncan with unfocused dread. What were they doing to his guards? He could not speak but there was no need. Tamalane was not finished.
"The punishment always ends with a dessert," she said and she clapped her hands against her knees.
Duncan frowned. Dessert? That was part of a banquet. How could a banquet be punishment?
"It is not really a banquet but the idea of a banquet," Tamalane said. One clawlike hand described a circle in the air. "The dessert comes something totally unexpected. The penitent thinks: Ahhh, I have been forgiven at last! You understand?"
Duncan shook his head from side to side. No, he did not understand.
"It is the sweetness of the moment," she said. "You have been through every course of a painful banquet and come out at the end to something you can savor. But! As you savor it, then comes the most painful moment of all, the recognition, the understanding that this is not pleasure-at-the-end. No, indeed. This is the ultimate pain of the major punishment. It locks in the Bene Gesserit lesson."
"But what will she do to those guards?" The words were wrenched from Duncan.
"I cannot say what the specific elements of the individual punishments will be. I have no need to know. I can only tell you it will be different for each of them."
Tamalane would say no more. She returned to laying out the next day's lessons. "We will continue tomorrow," she said, "teaching you to identify the sources of the various accents of spoken Galach."
No one else, not even Teg or Patrin, would answer his questions about the punishments. Even the guards, when he saw them afterward, refused to speak of their ordeals. Some reacted curtly to his overtures and none would play with him anymore. There was no forgiveness among the punished. That much was clear.
Damn Schwangyu! Damn Schwangyu!...
That was where his deep hatred of her began. All of the old witches shared in his hatred. Would the new young one be the same as the old ones?
Damn Schwangyu!
When he demanded of Schwangyu: "Why did you have to punish them?" Schwangyu took some time before answering, then: "It is dangerous for you here on Gammu. There are people who wish you harm."
Duncan did not ask why. This was another area where his questions were never answered. Not even Teg would answer, although Teg's very presence emphasized the fact of that danger.
And Miles Teg was a Mentat who must know many answers. Duncan often saw the old man's eyes glisten while his thoughts went far away. But there was no Mentat response to such questions as:
"Why are we here on Gammu?"
"Who do you guard against? Who wants to harm me?"
"Who are my parents?"
Silence greeted such questions or sometimes Teg would growl: "I cannot answer you."
The library was useless. He had discovered this when he was only eight and his chief instructor was a failed Reverend Mother named Luran Geasa - not quite as ancient as Schwangyu but well along in years, more than a hundred, anyway.
At his demand, the library produced information about Gammu/Giedi Prime, about the Harkonnens and their fall, about various conflicts where Teg had commanded. None of those battles came through as very bloody; several commentators referred to Teg's "superb diplomacy." But, one datum leading to another, Duncan learned about the time of the God Emperor and the taming of his people. This period commanded Duncan's attention for weeks. He found an old map in the records and projected it on the focus wall. The commentator's superimpositions told him that this very Keep had been a Fish Speaker Command Center abandoned during the Scattering.
Fish Speakers!
Duncan wished then that he had lived during their time, serving as one of the rare male advisors in the female army that had worshiped the great God Emperor.
Oh, to have lived on Rakis in those days!
Teg was surprisingly forthcoming about the God Emperor, calling him always "the Tyrant." A library lock was opened and information about Rakis came pouring out for Duncan.
"Will I ever see Rakis?" he asked Geasa.
"You are being prepared to live there."
The answer astonished him. Everything they taught him about that faraway planet came into new focus.
"Why will I live there?"
"I cannot answer that."
With renewed interest, he returned to his studies of that mysterious planet and its miserable Church of Shai-hulud, the Divided God. Worms. The God Emperor had become those worms! The idea filled Duncan with awe. Perhaps here was something worthy of worship. The thought touched a chord in him. What had driven a man to accept that terrible metamorphosis?
Duncan knew what his guards and the others in the Keep thought about Rakis and the core of priesthood there. Sneering remarks and laughter told it all. Teg said: "We'll probably never know the whole truth of it, but I tell you, lad, that's no religion for a soldier."
Schwangyu capped it: "You are to learn about the Tyrant but you are not to believe in his religion. That is beneath you, contemptible."
In every spare study moment Duncan pored over whatever the library produced for him: the Holy Book of the Divided God, the Guard Bible, the Orange Catholic Bible and even the Apocrypha. He learned about the long defunct Bureau of the Faith and "The Pearl that IS the Sun of Understanding."
The very idea of the worms fascinated him. Their size! A big one would stretch from one end of the Keep to the other. Men had ridden the pre-Tyrant worms but the Rakian priesthood forbade this now.
He found himself gripped by accounts from the archeological team that had found the Tyrant's primitive no-chamber on Rakis. Dar-es-Balat, the place was called. The reports by Archeologist Hadi Benotto were marked "Suppressed by orders of the Rakian Priesthood." The file number on the accounts from Bene Gesserit Archives was a long one and what Benotto revealed was fascinating.
"A kernel of the God Emperor's awareness in each worm?" he asked Geasa.
"So it's said. And even if true, they are not conscious, not aware. The Tyrant himself said he would enter an endless dream."
Each study session occasioned a special lecture and Bene Gesserit explanations of religion until finally he encountered those accounts called "The Nine Daughters of Siona" and "The Thousand Sons of Idaho."
Confronting Geasa, he demanded: "My name is Duncan Idaho, too. What does that mean?"
Geasa always moved as though standing in the shadow of her failure, her long head bent forward and her watery eyes aimed at the ground. The confrontation occurred near evening in the long hall outside the practice floor. She paled at his question.
When she did not answer, he demanded: "Am I descended from Duncan Idaho?"
"You must ask Schwangyu." Geasa sounded as though the words pained her.
It was a familiar response and it angered him. She meant he would be told something to shut him up, little information in the telling. Schwangyu, however, was more open than expected.
"You carry the authentic blood of Duncan Idaho."
"Who are my parents?"
"They are long dead."
"How did they die?"
"I do not know. We received you as an orphan."
"Then why do people want to harm me?"
"They fear what you may do."
"What is it I may do?"
"Study your lessons. All will be made clear to you in time."
Shut up and study! Another familiar answer.
He obeyed because he had learned to recognize when the doors were closed on him. But now his questing intelligence met other accounts of the Famine Times and the Scattering, the no-chambers and no-ships that could not be traced, not even by the most powerful prescient minds in their universe. Here, he encountered the fact that descendants of Duncan Idaho and Siona, those ancients who had served the Tyrant God Emperor, also were invisible to prophets and prescients. Not even a Guild Steersman deep in melange trance could detect such people. Siona, the accounts told him, was a true-bred Atreides and Duncan Idaho was a ghola.
Ghola?
He probed the library for elaborations on this peculiar word.
Ghola. The library produced for him no more than bare-boned accounts: "Gholas: humans grown from a cadaver's cells in Tleilaxu axlotl tanks."
Axlotl tanks?
"A Tleilaxu device for reproducing a living human being from the cells of a cadaver."
"Describe a ghola," he demanded.
"Innocent flesh devoid of its original memories. See Axlotl Tanks."
Duncan had learned to read the silences, the blank places in what the people of the Keep revealed to him. Revelation swept over him. He knew! Only ten and he knew!
I am a ghola.
Late afternoon in the library, all of the esoteric machinery around him faded into a sensory background, and a ten-year-old sat silently before a scanner hugging the knowledge to himself.
I am a ghola!
He could not remember the axlotl tanks where his cells had grown into an infant. His first memories were of Geasa picking him up from his cradle, the alert interest in those adult eyes that had so soon faded into wary lidding.
It was as though the information so grudgingly supplied him by the Keep's people and records had at last defined a central shape: himself.
"Tell me about the Bene Tleilax," he demanded of the library.
"They are a people self-divided into Face Dancers and Masters. Face Dancers are mules, sterile and submissive to the Masters."
Why did they do this to me?
The information machines of the library were suddenly alien and dangerous. He was afraid, not that his questions might meet more blank walls, but that he would receive answers.
Why am I so important to Schwangyu and the others?
He felt that they had wronged him, even Miles Teg and Patrin. Why was it right to take the cells of a human and produce a ghola?
He asked the next question with great hesitation. "Can a ghola ever remember who he was?"
"It can be done."
"How?"
"The psychological identity of ghola to original pre-sets certain responses, which can be ignited by trauma."
No answer at all!
"But how?"
Schwangyu intruded at this point, arriving at the library unannounced. So something about his questions had been set to alert her!
"All will be made clear to you in time," she said.
She talked down to him! He sensed the injustice in it, the lack of truthfulness. Something within him said he carried more human wisdom in his unawakened self than the ones who presumed themselves so superior. His hatred of Schwangyu reached a new intensity. She was the personification of all who tantalized him and frustrated his questions.
Now, though, his imagination was on fire. He would recapture his original memories! He felt the truth of this. He would remember his parents, his family, his friends... his enemies.
He demanded it of Schwangyu: "Did you produce me because of my enemies?"
"You have already learned silence, child," she said. "Rely on that knowledge."
Very well. That's how I will fight you, damned Schwangyu. I will be silent and I will learn. I won't show you how I really feel.
"You know," she said, "I think we're raising a stoic."
She patronized him! He would not be patronized. He would fight them all with silence and watchfulness. Duncan ran from the library and huddled in his room.
