And when he deepened the kiss, she let out this sound, this catchy little moan. What the hell was a man supposed to do but want?
Her hair was like a maze of madly coiled silk, and that pretty, curvy body of hers vibrated against him
like a well-tuned machine, revving for action. The longer he held her, the more he tasted her, the dimmer the warning bells sounded to remind him he didn't want to get tangled up with her. On any level.
When he managed to release her, to step back, he saw the flush riding along her cheeks. It made her
eyes bluer, bigger. It made him want to toss her over his shoulder and cart her off somewhere, anywhere at all where they could finish what the kiss had started. Because the urge to do so was an ache in the belly, he took another step back.
"Okay." He thought he spoke calmly, but couldn't be sure with the blood roaring in his ears. "See you around."
He walked back to the truck, got in. Managed to turn over the engine and shove into reverse. Then he
hit the brakes again when the sun speared into his eyes.
He sat, watching Stella walk forward, retrieve the sunglasses that had bounced off the hood and onto
the gravel. He lowered the window as she stepped to it.
His eyes stayed on hers when he reached out to take them from her. "Thanks."
"Sure."
He slipped them on, backed out, turned the wheel and drove out of the lot.
Alone, she let out a long, wheezing breath, sucked in another one; and let that out as she ordered her
limp legs to carry her to the porch.
She made it as far as the steps before she simply lowered herself down to sit. "Holy Mother of God,"
she managed.
She sat, even as a customer came out, as another came in, while everything inside her jumped and jittered. She felt as though she'd fallen off a cliff and was even now, barely—just barely—clinging to
a skinny, crumbling ledge by sweaty fingertips.
What was she supposed to do about this? And how could she figure it out when she couldn't think?
So she wouldn't try to figure it out until she could think. Getting to her feet, she rubbed her damp palms on the thighs of her pants. For now, she'd go back to work, she'd order pizza, then go home to her boys. Go home to normal.
She did better with normal.
TEN
Harper spaded the dirt at the base of the clematis that wound its way up the iron trellis. It was quiet on this edge of the garden. The shrubs and ornamental trees, the paths and beds separated what he still thought of as the guest house from the main.
Daffodils were just opening up, with all that bright yellow against the spring green. Tulips would be coming along next. They were one of his favorite things about this leading edge of spring, so he'd
planted a bed of bulbs right outside the kitchen door of his place.
It was a small converted carriage house and according to every female he'd ever brought there, it was charming. "Dollhouse" was the usual term. He didn't mind it. Though he thought of it more as a cottage, like a groundskeeper's cottage with its whitewashed cedar shakes and pitched roof. It was comfortable, inside and out, and more than adequate for his needs.
There was a small greenhouse only a few feet out the back door, and that was his personal domain.
The cottage was just far enough from the house to be private, so he didn't have to feel weird having overnight guests of the female persuasion. And close enough that he could be at the main house in minutes if his mother needed him.
He didn't like the idea of her being alone, even with David on hand. And thank God for David. It didn't matter that she was self-sufficient, the strongest person he knew. He just didn't like the idea of his
mother rattling around in that big old house alone, day after day, night after night.
Though he certainly preferred that to having her stuck in it with that asshole she'd married. Words couldn't describe how he despised Bryce Clerk. He supposed having his mother fall for the guy proved she wasn't infallible, but it had been a hell of a mistake for someone who rarely made one.
Though she'd given him the boot, swiftly and without mercy, Harper had worried how the man would handle being cut off—from Roz, the house, the money, the whole ball.
And damned if he hadn't tried to break in once, the week before the divorce was final. Harper didn't doubt his mother could've handled it, but it hadn't hurt to be at hand.
And having a part in kicking the greedy, cheating, lying bastard out on his ass couldn't be overstated.
But maybe enough time had passed now. And she sure as hell wasn't alone in the house these days. Two women, two kids made for a lot of company. Between them and the business, she was busier than ever.
Maybe he should think about getting a place of his own.
Trouble was, he couldn't think of a good reason. He loved this place, in a way he'd never loved a
woman. With a kind of focused passion, respect, and gratitude.
The gardens were home, maybe even more than the house, more than his cottage. Most days he could walk out his front door, take a good, healthy hike, and be at work.
God knew he didn't want to move to the city. All that noise, all those people. Memphis was great for a night out—a club, a date, meeting up with friends. But he'd suffocate there inside a month.
He sure as hell didn't want suburbia. What he wanted was right where he was. A nice little house, extensive gardens, a greenhouse and a short hop to work.
He sat back on his heels, adjusted the ball cap he wore to keep the hair out of his eyes. Spring was coming. There was nothing like spring at home. The way it smelled, the way it looked, even the way
it sounded.
The light was soft now with approaching evening. When the sun went down, the air would chill, but it wouldn't have that bite of winter.
When he was done planting here, he'd go in and get himself a beer. And he'd sit out in the dark and the cool, and enjoy the solitude.
He took a bold yellow pansy out of the cell pack and began to plant.
He didn't hear her walk up. Such was his focus that he didn't notice her shadow fall over him. So her friendly "Hey!" nearly had him jumping out of his skin.
"Sorry." With a laugh, Hayley rubbed a hand over her belly. "Guess you were a million miles away."
"Guess." His fingers felt fat and clumsy all of a sudden, and his brain sluggish. She stood with the setting sun at her back, so when he squinted up at her, her head was haloed, her face shadowed.
"I was just walking around. Heard your music." She nodded toward the open windows where REM spilled out. "I saw them in concert once. Excellent. Pansies? They're a hot item right now."
"Well, they like the cool."
"I know. How come you're putting them here? You've got this vine thing happening."
"Clematis. Likes its roots shaded. So you ... you know, put annuals over them."
"Oh." She squatted down for a closer look. "What color is the clematis?"
"It's purple." He wasn't sure pregnant women should squat. Didn't it crowd things in there? "Ah, you want a chair or something?"
"No, I'm set. I like your house."
"Yeah, me too."
"It's sort of storybook here, with all the gardens. I mean, the big house is amazing. But it's a little intimidating." She grimaced. "I don't mean to sound ungrateful."
"No, I get you." It helped to keep planting. She didn't smell pregnant. She smelled sexy. And that had
to be wrong. "It's a great place, and you couldn't get my mother out of it with dynamite and wild mules. But it's a lot of house."
"Took me a week to stop walking about on tiptoe and wanting to whisper. Can I plant one?"
"You don't have any gloves. I can get—"
"Hell, I don't mind a little dirt under my nails. A lady was in today? She said it's like good luck for a pregnant woman to plant gardens. Something about fertility, I guess."
He didn't want to think about fertility. There was something terrifying about it. "Go ahead."
"Thanks. I wanted to say ..." And it was easier with her hands busy. "Well, just that I know how it
might look, me coming out of nowhere, landing on your mama's doorstep. But I'm not going to take advantage of her. I don't want you to think I'd try to do that."
"I've only known one person to manage it, and he didn't manage it for long."
"The second husband." She nodded as she patted the dirt around her plant. "I asked David about him so
I wouldn't say something stupid. He said how he'd stuck his hand in the till, and cheated on her with another woman." She chose another pansy. "And when Roz got wind of it, she booted him out so hard and fast he didn't land till he was halfway to Memphis. You gotta admire that, because you know even with a mad on, it had to hurt her feelings. Plus, it's just embarrassing when somebody—oops."
She pressed a hand to her side, and had the blood draining out of Harper's face.
"What? What?"
"Nothing. Baby's moving around. Sometimes it gives me a jolt is all."
"You should stand up. You should sit down."
"Let me just finish this one. Back home, when I started to show? People, some people, just figured I'd got myself in trouble and the boy wouldn't stand up for me. I mean, Jesus, are we in the twenty-first century or what? Anyway, that made me mad, but it was embarrassing, too. I guess that's partly why I left. It's hard being embarrassed all the damn time. There." She patted the dirt. "They look really pretty."
He popped up to help her to her feet. "You want to sit for a minute? Want me to walk you back?"
She patted her belly. "This makes you nervous."
"Looks like."
"Me too. But I'm fine. You'll want to get the rest of those planted before it gets dark." She looked
down at the flowers again, at the house, at the gardens surrounding it, and those long, lake-colored eyes seemed to take in everything.
Then they zeroed in on his face and made his throat go dry.
"I really like your place. See you at work."
He stood, rooted, as she walked off, gliding along the path, around the curve of it, into the twilight.
He was exhausted, he realized. Like he'd run some sort of crazed race. He'd just have that beer now, settle himself down. Then he'd finish with the pansies.
* * *
With the kids outside taking Parker for his after-dinner walk, Stella cleaned up the mess two boys and
a dog could make in the kitchen over a pepperoni pizza.
"Next pizza night, I buy," Hayley said as she loaded glasses into the dishwasher.
"That's a deal." Stella glanced over. "When I was carrying Luke, all I wanted was Italian. Pizza,
spaghetti, manicotti. I was surprised he didn't pop out singing 'That's Amore.'"
"I don't have any specific cravings. I'll just eat anything." In the wash of the outside floodlights, she
could see boys and dog racing. "The baby's moving around a lot. That's normal, right?"
"Sure. Gavin just sort of snuggled and snoozed. I'd have to poke him or sip some Coke to get him moving. But Luke did gymnastics in there for months. Is it keeping you up nights?"
"Sometimes, but I don't mind. It feels like we're the only two people in the world. Just me and him—
or her."
"I know just what you mean. But Hayley, if you're awake, worried or just not feeling well, whatever,
you can come get me."
The tightness in her throat loosened instantly. "Really? You mean it?"
"Sure. Sometimes it helps to talk to somebody who's been there and done that."
"I'm not on my own," she said quietly, with her eyes on the boys outside the window. "Not like I thought I'd be. Was ready to be—I think." When those eyes filled, she blinked them, rubbed at them. "Hormones. God."
"Crying can help, too." Stella rubbed Hayley's shoulders. "And I want you to tell me if you want someone to go with you to your doctor's appointments."
"He said, when I went in, that everything looks good. Right on schedule. And that I should sign up for
the classes, you know? Childbirth classes. But they like you to have a partner."
"Pick me!"
Laughing, Hayley turned. "Really? You're sure? It's a lot to ask."
"I would love it. It's almost as good as having another one of my own."
"Would you? If..."
"Yes. Two was the plan, but as soon as Luke was born, I thought, how can I not do this again—and wouldn't it be fun to try for a girl? But another boy would be great." She leaned forward on the counter, looked out the window. "They're terrific, aren't they? My boys."
"They are."
"Kevin was so proud, so in love with them. I think he'd have had half a dozen."
Hayley heard the change in tone, and this time, she rubbed a hand on Stella's shoulder. "Does it hurt to talk about him?"
"Not anymore. It did for a while, for a long while." She picked up the dishrag to wipe the counter.
